The Day Before

I have been going through periods between calmness and absolute freak out. Packing is just generally horrible. I am the kind of person who wants to be prepared for everything and anything. And as much as they tell you about the kinds of things you will need for Japan, it's never enough because YOU haven't been there yet. It's hard for me to just let go and say "I'll figure it out when I get there." Most distressing has been dealing with the prescription medications. I was just diagnosed for having migraines last week, but then I re-read the handbook where they tell you that you need to discuss what kinds of medications you are bringing into Japan with the Japanese Consulate well in advance. Super. This trip has already stretched my boundaries and I haven't even gotten there yet. I have to let go of the perfectionism and just be. Just enjoy the experience. It's not about discovering myself or figuring out my calling in life or becoming fluent in Japanese. It's just about the experience and what I get out of it. I am going to make mistakes, I already have, and I just need to chill and get on with it. Have a little cry and then suck it up and move on. Tomorrow I am going to sit on a plane for 14 hours and arrive the next day in a foreign country halfway around the world. OK, can do. I've just got to take it one day at a time. I've got my books, my iPod, my Nintendo DS, my pillow, and my sweater. I'll get snacks in the airport. I am set for the plane ride tomorrow. Then we'll see about the next day. That's just all I can do. But it's hard to tell myself that all the time. Perfectionists always think we can do more and do it better. Oh well. Tomorrow I am going to Japan. Bring it on.